Song Fic: My Love

My Love

 

An empty street

An empty house

A hole inside my heart

I’m all alone

The rooms are getting smaller

 

Ari enters her room, closing the door behind her. A heavy sigh slips out of her mouth. She gazes around the place, breathing in the familiar scene in front of her. Putting her bag away, as she walks toward the closet.

 

She lies down on the bed. Her body feels so exhausted, after non-stop working from 9 to 5. She needs a good massage and a beauty sleep, but her mind keeps wandering to her boyfriend, Shane.

 

I wonder how

I wonder why

I wonder where they are

The days we had

The songs we sang together

 

It’s been almost a year since Ari moved away from her hometown, but she can still remember Shane’s hopeless expression while letting her go. She could see plead and worry on his eyes.

 

Even though they promised to keep in touch every day, but promises was just promises. The truth is they only contacted each other every other week due to their works, even sometimes a week gone by without a telephone call.

 

And oh my love

I’m holding on forever

Reaching for a love that seems so far

 

Ari reaches out for the teddy bear beside her, a gift for her last birthday from Shane. He said that it would be the reminder of him while they’re apart. Even though he only said it on the birthday card, nonetheless it was still a sweet gesture of Shane.

 

A tear trickles down her cheek as memories of their love run through her mind. The teddy bear was squished on a hug by Ari, she really misses him. Oh how she wishes that Shane was there, to hold her tight, to tell her that she was loved.

 

So I say a little prayer

And hope my dreams would take me there

Where the skies are blue

To see you once again my love

Over seas from coast to coast

To find the place I love the most

Where the fields are green

To see you once again

 

But she can only dream.

 

It was her decision to leave, she was the one who thought that she needed to be free. Free to be herself; free to actualize her dreams; free to decide her own will. And as a good boyfriend, Shane could only agree to what she wants, even though it hurt him that Ari chose the different path, but he understood, and he supported her decision.

 

Reaching out for her mobile, she determines to call Shane. She needs to hear his voice, to hear words of encouragement she knows she would get from him.

 

Unfortunately, busy signals were all she gets. She sends short messages, but no reply. Tries as she may, she couldn’t contact Shane. It seems that Shane is unable to reach.

 

I try to read

I go to work

I’m laughing with my friends

But I can’t stop to keep myself from thinking

 

Ari cries herself to sleep that night, thinking that Shane has forgotten about her. She’s quite sure that Shane tries to ignore her now.

 

A nightmare comes to her sleep, Shane was leaving her, she tried to hold him back with no avail. She wakes up with sweats drenches on her body. Flashes of the nightmare play on her head, but then she tosses them all away, assuring herself that it was just a nightmare, it means nothing.

 

The next morning she does her usual activities, or at least she tries to. Her mind couldn’t concentrate on her jobs as it always wanders away thinking about Shane. She’s already left another message for him before she went to work, but still no reply.

 

She attempts her hardest to snub the nags on her head that speculate every awful possibility on why Shane hasn’t called her back.

 

I wonder how

I wonder why

I wonder where they are

The days we had

The songs we sang together

 

To her annoyance, one of her workmates keeps telling her about their wedding plans. She can’t blame her, she guesses. Ari knows that her friend is only asking her for an opinion, not that her friend is intended to show off or something. But still, it’s a total torture.

 

Her mind flies to those memories where she and Shane would talk about their dreams, talk about what they want for life. A family, white picket fences with their kids running around the yard, nothing but happiness and contentment on their faces.

 

And oh my love

I’m holding on forever

Reaching for a love that seems so far

 

The memory brings a smile to her face. They promise to each other that someday they will live their dreams.

 

The dreams she could cling in to. The dreams of which still assured her about their relationship until now. The dreams that someday would be come true.

 

“Someday.” Ari prays.

 

So I say a little prayer

And hope my dreams would take me there

Where the skies are blue

To see you once again my love

Over seas from coast to coast

To find the place I love the most

Where the fields are green

To see you once again

 

After work, Ari goes straight to her apartment, in hope that maybe Shane called and left a message there. She checks her message on the phone, but none from Shane.

 

She calls some of her friends back home, in hope they would know on Shane whereabouts, but the results are still disappointing. She knows from her friends that Shane is alright, a friend of her met him yesterday, but she still doesn’t know why Shane hasn’t called her.

 

Okay, so she doesn’t need to worry that there’s something happen with Shane, but then why he still hasn’t contacted her? Is he seeing someone new? Is Shane cheating on her?

 

Oh, how she wishes she was back at home right now, she could go to Shane’s house and confronts him right there and then. But she’s not there, and there’s nothing she can do other than hopes that Shane is faithful to her.

 

Calling her mom, Ari tells her about the problem. Her mother understands her, and she gives Ari some shooting advices, comforting her and enlightened her with saying that maybe Shane was busy, and that she would need to keep on trying and don’t give up hope on them.

 

To hold you in my arms

To promise you my love

To tell you from the heart

You’re all I’m thinking of

I’m reaching for a love that seems so far

 

Alone in her room, Ari tries to avert her mind from Shane. She watches some movie on TV, but it turns out as the movie she and Shane had watched on their first date, and so it reminds her of him. She then tries to read a novel, but its story is about a cheating husband, thus it depresses her more.

 

“Why does it have to be like this?” Ari asks the teddy bear, as though it could answer her inquiry. She really is at her lowest mood right now. Everything reminds her of Shane, but she can do nothing other than wishing and praying that Shane still loves and cares about her.

 

The ringtone of her mobile snaps her up from her reverie, signing that she has a new message. She opens the message and feels her heart beats a mile a minute as the message comes from Shane. Familiar lines of lyric are shown on the screen, while Ari reads it slowly word by word as if they are the cure for her illness.

 

Say a little prayer

Dreams would take me there

Where the skies are blue

To see you once again my love

Over seas from coast to coast

To find the place I love the most

Where the fields are green

To see you once again

 

She knows those words; she memorizes those lyrics by heart. Those come from their song. A song of which describes how much they need each other; a song of which portrays their love into words; a song of their own.

 

Before she manages a reply, a soft knock on the door was heard. Ari frowns for awhile, wondering who is visiting at this time of hour. Nonetheless, she stands up and walks toward the door. Her mobile is still on her hand, starting to type some reply for Shane while walking.

 

She opens the door, and she can’t believe the sight in front of her.

 

“Shane!” Ari squeaks, her voice is stuck in her throat, a lump of happiness suddenly forms in her chest.

 

“My love…”

—-THE END—

 

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